Falling off the Wagon...

...having it run over you, back up- and run over it again. As I type I am sitting here eating cookies and cream out of the carton. I just cant mess up once- if I mess up- I just keep going...what is my problem?

Week 2: Taking sucking to a whole new level

Dont be dirty- this blog is not about that- yet. Maybe in a few years when I get into my baby making days...but for now we are talking about food- and my ability to inhale it into my face. Not only did I not track all week- but I didnt track at all- not my mcdaonalds- not my time at the Round table buffet, not the chinese food that I ate all by myself. and it shows. Honestly though it could have been worse- up .4, which i think had more to do with the TWO grilled cheese and ham sandwihches I had four hours before my weight in (not to mention all the real soda I drank to watch it down). They say that it is not the destination it is the journey- apparenty I like walking in circles

Week 1:Done

And I totally suck. Did I track- yes- did I track right- no. Did I track all week- no. Did I lose weight-7.6lbs suckas! OK- so I am not really as proud of myself as I should be because I know that I did noit really give it my all. Goal for this week- to actually track ALL week. To go to the doctor an monday and have her approve my "letsnotbesofat"plan. Already talked to the specialist- thankyou Kiasier and the ability to email with your doctors- got all my bloodwork updated and talked with her and I did not even have to pay to see her- I hope this weeks visit with my regular practicioner will go as well

Today is the Day

This is it- I am offically 25. Please ignore my towels and the crap in my closet-I am new at this! What did I get for my birthday- a membership to weight watchers. I realized a while ago that I am an idiot and can not do simple math- and that 11/11/11 is in fact 31 months away from here- which really only makes this situation better for me- the poor girl who is supposed to only wigh like 150lbs- and with the exception of the day I checked out of the hospital from gall bladder surgury and not eating for three days- has not seen that number since the fifth grade- or in more simple terms-15 YEARS. Weight not as bad as I thought- I can once again use the wii fit : 328.4- this is week one...Just wanted to document my starting point

25 is too young to feel this f-ing old

My birthday is in two weeks-ish. I will be 25 and my diet is no where is sight. Mike and I are "talking" about getting married at the end of 2011- or the be more exact-19 months from my 25th birthday. Have no idea what weight is- would guess 350 and growing- but I would like to actually find a wedding dress this time around- and that requires some action. To go from 350 to 200 in 19 months is 7.8 lbs a month- or roughtly 2 lbs a week- pretty girl at a pretty wedding- like I know how to plan one of those- and hopefullyby my 28th birthday we can start trying- likr for real. I am too unhealthy and too fat to go on this way...I want to live to see 38

So apparently you are supposed to post in a blog...

Not much has changed on the wieght front- in the past four months I have been down about 20 lbs- but now I am right back where I had startedI wish I could afford to join wieght watchers or something like that... oh well I will just take it day by day

So it begins...

OK, Um... My name is Jess and I am fat. Not chubby, not big boned- not more to love fat. So fat in fact that in order to reach a place where I would be considered many of the above things I will have to lose the equivielant wieght of a grown woman who is actually taller than me. There is a skinny chick in here somewhere, but since I have never seen her I assume that I must have eaten her. I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2006, and if I ever hope to have a baby- I had better get my butt in gear. Also, consider yourself lucky- this could be the only blog entry I ever proofread.




Weight: 332.4 ( I think the scale was off- that is eight pounds lighter than last week)